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K2's Space: 美麗回憶...10月23日 秋季:Changes...It's Autumn again lah... leaves are falling from the trees...
Time goes by very fast, and I'm standing on the sideline watching time flow away,
ppl around me change and accept new challenges...
It's been a long time since I let myself go, I feel sad...coz my dearest cousin Cherry lost JarJar, her little bunny...
 I just read her blog, and her farewell to JarJar touched my deepest feelings, and I couldn't help myself to drop a tear, sorry that I couldn't be there to cry with her... support her... I want to call her, tell her I know... tell her not to be sad, but I know all she wants to do now is to keep her memories to JarJar alive... My deepest sorry for your lost...Cherry, hope you, Simon and PabPab will be strong and find a way to be happy again. I know it needs time to heal... JarJar will bless you and so will your family in Holland.
Our thoughts are with you.
 I'm sorry for the long pause since my last update... I'm sure some of you are curious about my whereabouts.
It's difficult to keep up this Space, writing a blog when you're busy all the time...
Since past summer, I'm following the mastercourses of International Business Law on Mondays and Tuesdays,
working at Interpolis Insurance Company from Wednesday's till Friday,
following streetdance courses with my Sister Carmen on Thursday evenings,
meeting a Chinese girl to improve her Dutch speeches once in a week,
and since September/October also following classical Dance (foxtrot, chachacha, tango) with my dear BF David on Tuesday evenings, and following a course in Insurance on Monday evenings.
So, actually I only have the wednesday evening and Friday evening free time and usually I will lie very lazily on the couch watching television or read a book to relax.
Saturday is boyfriend or family day and Sunday is also my rest day...
My sister and boyfriend sometimes ask me why I want to do so many things at the same time...
I think my answer can be quite simple, I don't want other ppl to think I stopped improving my skills, that I'm 'mow yong' worthless, becoz I couldn't find a suitable job in the Legal Sector after graduating for such a long time... I know I should put my priorities no. 1 on finding THAT specific job... =S
But I worry a lot about my capabilities, maybe becoz I'm just a perfectionist. Being rejected so many times has harmed my self esteem, and I need time to recover that self esteem, by showing myself I'm able to cope with lots of things on the same time... I'm willing to learn, but I fail in confronting myself to achieve my goals... I need to get strong on that point... weak people will fail, while being strong you've already succeeded halfways...
The first step in my planning now, is to get an internship linked to my study. It's clear to me now, that going abroad to show your independence, volunteering to show your integrity with society is not enough to secure you from getting a good job.
Internships are most important, and I will have to show myself during that internship. Need to put myself together and motivate myself that I can succeed this step... Will age be a major factor in this stage? I hope not...
So long with my busy schedule...
Some events that keeps popping in my mind, happy(+) and sad(-) things:
(+)my Birthday, celebrating with my dear family and boyfriend, David's mom cooking me a chocolate cake, and eggtarts and David arranging my birthday to make me happy. My mom eating a herring for the first time, my dad laughing... Chatting with family in HK.
(+) going to streetdance with my sister, happy my sister dragged me to dance and sweat one hour together, teaching me the steps at home makes me feel very bounded (verbonden) with her. Although sometimes I let her think she really dragged me to something which was not my choice, I'm happy I can do this with her...completing a dance in the learning process together...
(+) My family coming to Tilburg helping us to redecorate... nowadays it's not easy for us to be together as a complete family... my birthday and the redecorating gave us opportunity to stick together, and I feel very warm when bringing up the memories... laughing, nagging, talking, all part of our family gatherings, and I feel sorry we cannot have more of these gatherings... i know my mom and dad would be happy to be able to see us more...
(+)My boyfriend showing me his new house, it was quite exciting to see his enthusiasm to show me his future crib... his family being very nice to me... his parents' yummie cookings and Miu Miu biting a frog.. =o
(-/+) the touching chitchat with my teaminstructor.. him trying to open me up to socialize with my new collegues. His efforts to make me see, all the worries are within myself, and are not realistic in real situations. he's doing it for my own goodwill to integrate in our diversive team. I'm changing already... ^_<
(+)going to the Efteling with my boyfriend and his parents, sister and Bertrand. It was a great day, no rain, but too crowded to be able to play more activities. Made some beauty pictures with David and his family...
(+) going to Amsterdam with my mom and sister... living in hotel, felt like being tourist in Holland again. It was a happy weekend, shopped alot and made my mom smiled a lot!! ^_^
(+)knowing there are ppl who miss me and love me for who I am... and my grandma telling me she really wants to see me soon.. Miss and love you too!!!
(-)JOB: Being commercial all the time makes me feel irritating towards the ppl I give my service to, understanding where the irritation comes from, but not being able to NOT give selling advice, coz it's part of my job requirement.
Why is selling more important than giving good service? Who can tell me what I can do to loosen my reluctancy towards giving commercial advice towards third ppl? Even when I know there is a financial problem or bad happening in clients situation, we need to find a gap to remind the client he doesn't have ALL the possible insurances. How far can one go to achieve their goals? How far can I go to achieve my goal? Sighing deeply... =S
(+) JOB: taking lots of responsibility and freedom to accept certain risks in the insurance world. Learning how to weigh the pros and cons in accepting what risks.
(+/-) GAINING MORE LOVE, UNDERSTANDING on the one side, DISCOVERING that MISCOMMUNICATION can sometimes integrate into your perfect dreamworld, clashing the perfect image of a perfect relationship... accepting REALITY... part of growing up and understanding one and other... part of accepting not only the positive, but also the negative side of each other. Part of reaching out to understand and communicate better in future...
(+) Rie's nickname: I miss my NUS friends, is this including me? ;P
(+) an email from a far friend: Tea, which was very touching and I feel guilty for losing my address book. Absolutely need to find it...
* dangerous situations caused by chestnuts, be aware!! :p
What's coming next?
Examinations, finding internship, celebrating Mum's bday, KH's bday and Xmas, maybe a little housewarming at BF's and going to company's BIG party in tropical sphere and more...
Hope you can give me a little comment about your own whereabouts lah!!!^_<
Karyee 7月31日 Susanne in HollandDear you,
I promised to give you a more detailed journal about Susanne's visit to the Netherlands and our adventures together. Actually, I want to revive and capture this for myself, becoz one week passed by very fast and now she's back in Sweden, it seems like she has never been here to visit me...
Wednesday 26th April 2006
Susanne arrived around 11.30 in Tilburg West Station, carrying a green hard plastic suitcase...
She didn't change alot, but from the pictures you can see that her hair is a bit longer now, and also
red, I think it makes her look even younger! Susanne stopped over in Holland, because her next stop would be in Munich, Germany, where she had a working course from her company.
Well, from the station to my apartment, it takes approximately 10-15 minutes to walk, but carrying the heavy suitcase it took a bit longer!
I live at the 4th storey of the building, it's the top already, but there is no elevator to bring you to the top.
Therefore, it's quite a good exercise to walk the 7-8 stairs up to the apartment I share with my sister Carmen.
I asked Susanne whether this was the kind of place she would expect me to live in, and she told me it wasn't... aiyaa... I don't live that bad do I? :p
My appartment has 3 rooms, a living room, a little kitchen and bathroom, ideal if you are with two, but a bit small if you live with 3 persons. My room is the biggest, it's the one where most light comes in, but becoz the ventilation in this room is sooo good, it's pretty cold in the winters.
My sister lives in a bit smaller and darker room, but she likes it dark, coz she's a very light-sleeper and is easily awaken, even little noise or little light will disturb her in her sleep.
The smallest room is our storage room. It's a room where we hang our wash to dry and where we have lots of unnecessary stuff we don't use anymore.
After discribing my living-place, it's time to tell you more interesting things... like, where did we hang out these few days? Becoz Susanne was a bit tired, and we already spoiled half a day... we decided to stay in Tilburg,
where we went shopping and wandering around, also reviving our memories of Singapore and asking about the friends who are still there... Like Vern, John, Si Jing... and how about Rie in Japan? Emmy in HK?
We decided to make a plan of things to do and see in NL.
Thursday...
After a good nights sleep in my sister's room, Susanne in mine, it was time to wake up and get breakfast. After breakfast we took the train to The Hague, and then took the electronic tram to 'Madurodam' (look for the pictures we shot to get an impression of the Miniature town of the Netherlands)
I haven't been to Madurodam for many years, since I was a kid actually. Therefore, I looked very much forward to this day!!! Shot 400 pictures already on the first day!!! :P (yeah, i know, it's quite boring for you to see only buildings, buildings, ice, ice, buildings and around 5 pictures of me and Susanne, sorry!!!)
Afterwards we went to Scheveningen by tram... Scheveningen is one of the most popular beach sides in Holland. In summertime, the whole beach is crowded with ppl and tourists around the world, swimming, sunbathing, playing... it's really a famous beach in Holland.
WHen Susanne and I arrived... they were in process of building sandsculptures for the Sandsculpting festival 2006! I never thought they would actually build them with machines, but on the other hand, it's a bit naieve to think that they would build these big sculptures by bare hands =~
That evening we went to Rotterdam to have Chinese Food at Oriental Seapalace after taking a walk through the City Centre and the famous Waterside of Rotterdam, where you can see the Erasmus Bridge...
Friday...
We planned to go to Nijmegen on Friday, coz Jenny, my good friend who visited me in Singapore, was back in NL for 3 days only, and we wanted to pay her a short visit.
I know Jenny from my college days at Tilburg University. After graduation, she went to Spain to work and experience the Spanish life there. She likes Spanish guys as well =P maybe that's the reason why she refuses to come back to Holland! But anyway, Jenny didn't change much either, she got herself light blonde hair now, but Jenny, honestly.. i think you look best in your naturel colour.
So, Jenny was our Touring Guide in Nijmegen, where they claim to be the oldest city in the Netherlands.
And I do agree with you Jenny... 80 euros for a passport is ridiculous!
After having late lunch in a Pancake house, where Susanne had delicious Pancake and Jenny& me the Marikenbrood, we said goodbye to Jenny... (highlight in Nijmegen--> =P the red light district $$)
After we seperated with Jenny, we went to Den Bosch, where we had the Bossche Bol!!!
I really need to explain what is A Bossche Bol, coz if you are a tourist in Den Bosch, it's a pity to not have had the Bosche Bol.. It's a Delicious Whipped cream filled Chocolate Delight... I'm lucky that it's a secret recipe, coz It's dangerous to have too many of them, if you know what i mean... soooo many calories!!!
After Den Bosch, we were tired and we decided to go home and hire some videotapes at the local moviestore.
We took Brother's Grimm starring the guy from Knight's Tale (I'm terrible in remembering names) and Matt Damon... if you like fairytales, you should see this movie... it's about magic and believing in fairies...
THe other movie was 'Cake' starring Heather Graham(?) and Chris from the Gilmore Girls (again sorry for not remembering the real name). Sophie Oh (the girl from Grey's Anatomy) plays a little role in the movie, but very funny and I like her performance a lot! It's about a party girl, who travels around the world being freelancer and live her happy, single life with lots of one-nightstands and loose relationships... She doesn't believe in marriage and it's comical that due to her father's illness, director of a bridal magazine, she has to face the whole marriage idea and of course she will change her idea about this subject lah! Trouble, we have to return the movies the next day, but the videostore is only open from 1 pm till 9 pm... aiyaah... going to Utrecht in the morning... what to do now?!
After watching these TWO movies, we finally went to sleep, coz tomorrow is another busy day!
Saturday 30th April-->> QUeens Day!!!
Susanne and I got up quite early, had breakfast, take shower and I went to my neighbour to ask him for his help returning the videotapes I lent at the Videostore. He's very friendly, so I knew he wouldn't refuse me... so lucky to have good neighbours!
We were to meet David at the trainstation Tilburg West around 10.05. It's my habit to come late always, so this time I had Susanne to remind me of the time... we arrived in Utrecht around 11.00 and it started to rain from time to time. !0! !0! !0! Queens Day is only fun if the weather is sunny and bright, seeing lots of ppl together in a variosity of fleemarkets and poppodia... Too bad lah!
After having little snacks at the fleemarket, getting into the Dom (church) and seeing some ppl play Capoeira, we decided to go to Den Bosch.
DenBosch was shiny, lots of ppl, no fleemarkets, but still some shopping centres open. We had choc and coffee at McDonalds, decided our next step, TIlburg to have diner and to watch a movie that evening.
THere is this nice tapas bar in TIlburg near the Schouwburgplein... They serve little tapasdishes and it's very very yummie! Afterwards we went to watch the movie Lucky Slevin... due to tiredness both Daivid and me fell asleep and missed the plot.. aiyaaa!
Sunday 1th of May --> Antwerp
Some highlights:
Lots of historical Churches, Susanne who forgot to bring her passport and was afraid to cross the border of Holland and Belgium... funny!!! (nothing happened eventually)
Near Lunchtime, We had chocolatemilk and coffee and a plate of delicate icecream cakes... ssoooo yummie and naughty!!! =P
For dinner we went to an Argentinian Restaurant where I had a nice Mixed Grill.. never had that before, have to try again next time... yummie yummie yummie!!!
Went to sleep early for next day we have planned Amsderdam!!!
2th of May ---> Amsterdam!!!
Before coming to the Netherlands, Susanne already planned to stay one night in Amsterdam. Becoz, her plane to Munich would leave the next day... we decided to go to Amsterdam as final highlight in NL.
I asked my good friend Karin to come along to act like tourists also... coz although Karin and I were born and live in Holland for many many years, we will always feel like a tourist when wandering around in the big metropole Amsterdam. It's like going on a holiday in your own country... crazy leh?! So, we met Karin at Den Bosch central station, where we continued our trip to Utrecht and as final station Amsterdam Central. Susanne and I had to check in at HOtel Old QUarter around 11.30, but we made it all in good time. Next thing... our rooms would only be available at 13.30, so we had to leave our luggage in their luggage store, which is actually a regular cellar in the cafe.
Next... Decide to go sightseeing... what to do leh?!
Rijksmuseum...stood one and a half hour in the line in the cold and rain with our umbrellas, waiting until some ppl in the museum would make place for new ppl.. why is it so crowded on a Mondaymorning after all?!
Finally inside... omg... took a tour around 45 minutes and stood outside in the rain again...
what did we see? I was hoping to see the Aardappeleters from Rembrandt or even just one work made by Van Gogh.. so disappointed!!!
next... back to the hotel... put our luggage in our rooms and going to the next highlight of Amsterdam...
The Anne Frank House!!!
For the ones who do not know Anne Frank a little reminder... She's the Jewish girl from Amsterdam who wrote down her experiences of the Second World War in her little diary. The bookcase which led to the hiding place of the Family Frank was so well-constructed, that the enemy would not suspect anything. In the end, the family was believed to be betrayed and were transported in diverse concentrationcamps where they would have to face death... Otto Frank, Anne Frank's father, survived the camp and published his daughter''s diary many years later.
I read the diary when I was in primary school, so it was a long long time ago... it all came back when we were inside the museum and it became realistic what Anne Frank and her family and friends experienced during their stay there.
Afterwards... we decided to take a tour around Amsterdam by boat... It was quite nice, besides two young fellows from England I suppose, we were the only ones...
Dinner... Indian Food... yummie yummie!
Seeing Karin off to the tram heading to Central station and meeting Susannes boss and colleague.
THey were very nice, but I felt too tired, was longing for my own bed, and was waiting to reload my bats for the cellphone, in case someone particular was trying to call me all night =p
Although, it was quite loud outside, I fell asleep very quickly. Susanne, I hope the thing you told me came out positive! ;)
The next day, check out day... after a great English breakfast with eggs, sausages, bread and jam, we checked out of the hotel, went to do some last shoppings and sat ourselves at the big DAMsquare.
I received a very special and unexpected phonecall from a dear friend of my dear friend Bo.
A big career opportunity... and I was nearby... YES!!!
So, after seeeing Susanne of to the airport, almost let some tears drop... after chitchatting and saying goodbyes... i went to my meeting, keeping great memories of Susanne's stay in my mind!
Life must go on, Susanne's back to hers.. I will have to continue as well,
but now I have one more glory... it is INDEED possible for longdistance friends to meet eventually,
No matter when or how, my hope won't fade...
So, for the friends in Singapore, who's next?
5月3日 Late SpringCan anyone tell me why springtime arrives later and later every year? Have we all, ppl of this planet, really ruined the original timeschedule of the seasons by our violations of the laws of nature, destruction of the environment, our intelligent technological improvements? After experiencing months and months of cold days and nights, short days and long nights... finally a smell of springflowers and grass, birds making lovenests and leaves getting green! Springtime has finally begun!!!
Dear spring, Waking up in the morning with the sun shining in my eyes... Feeling of happiness, telling winterblues goodbyes... I missed the green of nature, the flowers at their best... my hopes faded in winter, time to put myself together, to let my worries rest...
So, let this spring result in more than only hopes, let spring result in faith! Faith in me, the future, my skills and talent, Let me taste more of life, don't just let me wait and wait and wait.. I refuse to give up when i receive another disappointment... Will springtime give me the energy, the energy to go on? Will my life also be like spring, challenges been overwon?
Today, 26 degrees in Holland... like summertime!!! Susanne came to visit me last week, so happy, but I will give report to our trips later. Yesterday I received two positive responses in my job application, so that's a good start ^_^ My mom and sister are almost coming back from their holiday with happy stories =) I missed them! Me and my boyfriend have been happily together for two years now... that is also optimistic ^_< I am so happy to have good friends like Bo, although we don't have much contact nowadays.. she still has the power to give me courage and strength to keep going and believing, I'm very grateful to have a 'sister' like her! Thanx so much for everything!!! Springtime... already gave me lots of good memories this year, and it just began! What more surprises will it bring me?!
1月25日 Why?There are many things in life you may wonder why...
Why is it that after sunshine, there is always rain, why is it that when you feel happy, there is bound to be something worse to happen to someone who is dear to you?
Why is it that life has so many difficulties in front of us that we need to face in order to grow and learn from these hard lessons?
Why is it that when you wish everyone the best to happen, happiness, health and good luck... your wishes don't always reach the other person?
Why are there so many ppl in my direct environment feeling stressed, lonely, depressed, unhappy... jobless, problems in relationships, misscarriages, illness and worse and Why does that affect me so much?
There is a mixture of feelings going through my mind, making me feel uncomfortable in what lies before me... I know that in some part of our lives, we have bitter, sweet and sour experiences... that's what makes life more colourful, and makes you appreciate your happy moments more...
But when there is a moment when you feel so much effected by the bitter and sour experiences in your direct environment, that you start to question how you can feel happy and unhappy at the same time... must you feel guilty when you are happily in love with someone or when your family is in a healthy state, when your friend is experiencing bitterness and coldness at the same moment? I feel useless being unable to help out... I hope my listening ear could really take away just a little bit of unhappiness... however, I know it doesn't help too much...
What I could do is to just ignore reality and pretend to be happy to the entire world, when on the other hand I feel like hope and faith is slipping away from my own hands...
I'm afraid I can never feel as happy as I was when everything and everyone in my personal environment was feeling perfectly okay...
I'm afraid, I will not find myself a suitable job and become a failure, I'm close in feeling like one already...
Academic graduated, so what? As long as I'm not finding myself a job I'm happy with, I'm failing myself and my family... I don't want anyone to worry about me, becoz I have always been capable of taking care of my own business... I didn't dare to share my innerfeelings to the outside world too much, becoz they are already too complicated for myself to understand... It's easier to write things down, then to make things even complicated by telling others... But now, I don't feel that way anymore... I know that it's crucial that you have someone to share your interests, your feelings and your experiences with... communication is important to know how the other thinks, feels and wants... if there is misunderstanding, unhappiness, ppl should open up and talk about it. I'm learning how to open up myself, slowly... being seperated with my family, bf and friends when I was in Singapore taught me to share my experiences with the ppl who care for me most.. I made some very nice friends there, becoz I opened up to them, shared my experiences with them... I realize, I felt happier to open up myself, sharing ideas, interests, then to shut myself from others... I'm grateful to learn this lesson... personally by real experience!
When you care for one person deeply enough, you will also know that you reach the stage when you want to share not only the happy moments with this person, but also the bitter ones... That you don't need to be afraid you will affect the other, becoz it can only affect, when that person really cares for you...
For the ones who, just like me are wondering about the many why's in life...
Keep faith and keep hoping, coz after the rain, the sun will shine again... always!!!
I try to remember that one is not to think too much about solutions, coz some things are just beyond your own powers to solve... that's how life is planned to be, you cannot plan things, becoz things are being planned for you... bittersweet, full of surprises, sometimes disappointments, sadness and misunderstandings... When you keep the sweet memories of your colourful life in the deepest place of your heart, and bringing these memories back when you feel unhappy, also keep in mind that you will have many more sweet memories to come when you open up your heart to new challenges in life...
1月3日 Happy New Year!!! Best Wishes...
Another year has begun, Happy New Year to ALL of YOU! May all your hopes and wishes for 2006 come true, in love, friendship, career, school, with family, with friends, lots of health and hopefully also wealth, success in all you undertake and may good luck come to you this year and the following years to come!!!
for the ones who are still studying... to pass all exams and tests succesfully, for the ones graduated and finding a job just like myself... to find yourself the right path to start your career, discipline to keep trying and keep faith... for the ones working unhappily or receiving too low wages... the courage to change for another job or ask for what you're worth... for the ones not working and traveling around the world, receiving many worthful lifetime experiences... way to go, have fun and don't forget to come back once in a while to chit chat... Better, to blog your experiences and let us experience ur adventures with you...
for my dear family in HK and US, especially to Cherry and her hubby Simon and their lovely rabbits Pabpab and Jar Jar, to my dear little cousine Vanness, her lil' brother Ho Man and their dear parents, uncle and aunt, uncle Kay, Chuen, Aunt Alice, Michael, Casey, Estid, Karki and KarChun, Hang Hang, and aunt Fong, my other aunts, uncles and cousins, not to forget another dear cosine Peggy and Co., etcetera... Take care and lots of love from Holland!
for my dear boyfriend David... 520 now, in 2006, 2007 and so on la... my friends Natalie, Jenny, Natascha, Renske, Karin, Bo, Ingeborg, Elsbeth, Kenneth and Emmy, Sin Yi, Olivia, Jennifer and Annemarie, I wish all the best to you as well! Natalie, good luck in your job interview 11th January! Let's get together soon again! Jenny, good luck in your new function as Coordinator at Faborit and miss you around in NL! Natascha and Renske, let's catch a movie some time later! Karin, wish u good luck in finishing your final thesis, and catch up soon ok? Bo... MISS YOU and your wise advice,you're like a sister to me, hope your doing well in Beijing and when your visiting Holland again, pls don't forget to pass by! Ingeborg and Elsbeth, let's really catch up later in Rotjeknor! WOnder how you are! Kenneth, wish you lots of happiness tgt with Emmy... way to go PWC and P&G!!! You deserve your achievements! Sin Yi, good luck in China for your studies, and weren't we supposed to meet up before your departure? Olivia, Jennifer and Annemarie... it's been too long ago since our last catch up... when's next? Annemarie, good luck in New Orleans! I'll visit your blog once in a while to see your great experiences there!
For my dear friends I was so lucky to know in Singapore... Susanne, Rie, Emmy, Si Jing, Vern, Tyng, John, Yao Yao, Merry, Yans, Tanja, TS, Najung, Maria, Misa, Tea, Sin Yoh, Gilbert, Emma, Katie, Anton, Leong ... Good Luck to all of you and best wishes for all next to come! HOpe to hear from you through your blogs and emails and maybe MSN! Let's stay in touch okay?! I really really miss all of you and think of our happy moments in 2004! Sorry I don't often update my blog or email/MSN you in 2005, best intentions to catch up more often in 2006 lah! =)
OF COURSE.. my dearest dad and mom, dearest sister Carmen and lil brother Karho! Wish you happiness and health alwayz!!! Good luck and fun fun in Italy, NY and HK!!!
BTW, I must have missed one or two or maybe three becoz of my hurry to put this late greeting online..., I'm sorry... no offences made hopefully and all the best to you TOO!!!
11月27日 Snowy dayz... maybe a pretty White Xmas after all? ^_<This weekend a greater part of the Netherlands is covered with white snow...
Snow is beautiful, snow is nice, u can play with it, build your own Snow monster, throw snowballs to eachother... You can have lots of fun with it, THAT IS... IF you take the freezing cold and slippery roads for granted!!!
I'm also fond of all this magical white coming down from the blue blue sky... but i'm most fond of snow, when ME myself am sitting safely and warm inside with a mug of hot chocolate milk and a nice book... taking a glimpse of the white landscape once in a while gives u a brighter and sharper look of certain situations living in your head.
This weekend my intention was to travel back home on Friday after my work, home to my parents, my mom's home cooking and her care...
I hadn't been home very often lately and felt a bit guilty about it, becoz my mom really looks forward to seeing her children more often.. So I really wanted to get home earlier to have a long weekend there...
My mom told me she made one of my favourite recipes... rettich cake yummie!!! so another very important reason to get home asap of course lah!
 However, due to the storm that started thursday evening and went extreme on friday... all traffic got stuck, the news showed us a traffic spam of around 800 kms in total... some ppl had to sleep in their cars, becoz it was impossible to continue their ride... The trains also went down... By the time I got to the train station, there was a large crowd waiting, and after consultating my sister and bf, I decided it was better not to travel home on friday after all...risking myself being stuck in the middle of nowhere, everyone worrying about me, and me myself worrying most of how to get home eventually...
It was only yesterday afternoon that I could return home safely, my mom happy to receive me, myself happy receiving the comfort of a caring mom, my stomache happy to receive the delicious rettich cake...
No time to waste, we decided to go to the city mall together and get some fresh air...
Buying lots of stuff, walking in the wet slipperly snow, it was funny to see lots of ppl outside in the cold, holding on to each other, watching out not to slip... hehe... but, time went by too fast again...
my first intention was to go home and see my parents and my friends in Terneuzen and hang out, however I didn't call them after all, coz i could see my mom wanting to spend more time with me alone... btw, I still have next weekend in Terneuzen... ^_^
Following some updates of my life since the beginning of November...
Since 3 weeks I'm working fulltime on a temporarily basis in the administration of a large Organization operating in the interest of farmers and garderners... It's just until I find myself a job in the legal sector, which I still didn't give up hope in... hope to find one soon lah!
Next thing...
I know Emmy, Rie and Vern all had their bdays the past few weeks!!!
 Here is to wish them a happy year again and hope their wishes will come true lah!
THanx Emmy for your sweet replay, and hope you passed all exams... hope your internship will be succesful!
Si Jing, I will reply your email also soon... thanx for your e-card ar!!! I wish you all the best too!!!
I wish my boyfriend will ganbatte the next coming days for his exams and pass them succesfully for a good closure of 2005 ^_<
I wish my cosine CHerry all the best lah, keep happy forever, and ur alwayz on our mind! Hope next week our date on MSN will really take place okay? Looking fwd to see you and SImon again!
Okay, I must hurry to catch the next bus now!
CYa all next time lah!
 Hope we will have a white xmas finally this year lah!!! 11月7日 Autumn... rainy dayz, falling leaves...Writing down my feelings in this first week of November,
I realize that summertime has really passed...
 We will have to wait until next year to embrace the hot summers, t-shirts and shorties again!
Some will miss the beach, ice-cream, bbq and summer holidayz,
some will feel relieved from all the airconditioning, bikini diets, hot sleepless nights and sunburn...
It's absolutely autumn now, the weather has become cloudy, wet and very unpredictable...
Trees and other green have lost their colour and their leaves...
The clock has been set back one hour to give us the impression of gaining one hour more 'to sleep' on Sunday , maybe implemented to adjust us to the autumn feeling and very soon from autumn to the blues feeling caused by the winter...
 The dayz have gone shorther, darker and colder now...
It's time to change our wardrobes, dress warmer, check our umbrellas before going out, put on the heater in the evenings, and have big meals to gain some piggyfat and energy to overcome winter 2005...
 For the friends living in Singapore, I would like to say,especially in this time of the year...
I really miss all of you, I still remember all of you,
I remember Singapore without autumn, without winter and without cold (except for the airconditioned rooms)
I remember mosquitos, cold fuit fusions, Malaysia beaches, karaoke, Lau Pa Sat, Pulau Ubin, Orchard movies and shopping, durians, egg tarts, dinosaur Milo, Cheese Prata shop, even the canteens in PGP and NUS...
I remember the biking, swimming, walking, singing, dancing, eating, studying, playing and laughing together,
and I realize...all of these actually happened to me... I was so lucky to get this lifetime chance to meet all of you, to experience life in a totally different environment, to learn from different cultures...
I know now, that there is more in life for us to discover and explore,
to discover that being away from home has made me realize I'm being loved and missed at home,
to love and miss them back and to cherish even more in future!
All we shared in Singapore has turned into history becoz we will never have the opportunity to meet all together again... It has become a sweet memory... a story to talk to family and friends about during tea!
We shared a lot together, but we must accept that we will have to go on the paths we choose to continue, we will have to broaden our perspectives, we will meet new ppl in our lives non-stop...and these ppl will also become part of our lives/ our history and our future...
What we had together is gone, but for me it also became a dream,
a dream that one day, I will meet my far away friends again...
   Last week has brought me some happy and some unhappy moments in my life! I received hope, I received confusion, I received misunderstandings and I received love and care! I have nothing to complain, coz this is just how life is... without the ups and downs, life wouldn't be as colourful as it is now!
Looking back at the miscommunications I encountered last week, I just hope that next week will bring me a more clear view in human relationships, will bring me the power to make right decisions, and give me fair chances to hunt for the job of my own interests!
Hope the sun will keep shining for me once in a while lah!
BTW, why is my left eye trembling constantly? Is this a good or bad sign leh? |
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